Gratitude for 8-25-2013 and Getting to the Bottom of My Emotional Heap

"Today I am grateful to recognize that I have reached a milestone in overcoming my overeating. I have recognized, admitted and accepted what eluded me and hurt me the deepest. I am grateful that since Thursday I have been eating much healthier and that the nagging need to stuff myself with foods that sedated me is gone".

I can not stress enough on how important and beneficial it is to face emotions that are twisted. I have found that by doing that, that behaviour loses it's grip over me and I can decide how I want to proceed. It sounds simple but it takes guts and courage to face and admit aspects about ourselves that we would rather not. By that behaviour losing it's strength over us, we can then proceed forward with healthier and more positive behaviour.   

I believe that I am incredibly fortunate to have access to psychotherapists for all of the years that I have lived in torment, lost, not knowing why I was so self-destructive, what drove me to drink, to overeat, to continually sabotage my life. It has been a very long road and it has taken a ton of work, but the benefits I receive and now experience at leaving all of that poison behind me is magnificent!!

I am surrounded by people who really love me and want me in their lives. That alone provides me with a richness I simply adore. 

Gratitude for 6-4-2013 and Beginning to Thrive

I am grateful that I believe that I am finally beginning to thrive.


As human beings, we are so very much like flowers. They need nourishment, water, sunlight, a clear and clean  place to grow and thrive. So do we. With any of those factors missing, they become needy, clingy, brown and eventually wilt.

I understand now the need for community and socialization. I have very dear and loving online girlfriends who I know want me in their life as much as I need and want them in mine. I also have some in-person girlfriends who I can't wait to see and spend quality fun time with. I feel like I am finally becoming whole.

Gratitude for 6-3-2013 and Having a Boatload of Fun!!

Today I am grateful for all the fun I am having!! My life is so much FUN now!! Even going to my psychotherapy sessions are more fun and the topics are ones I am greatly enjoying. I am very grateful that, at least for now, so much darkness and pain is behind me.

Gratitude for 5/31/2013 and Emotional Needs Getting Met

Today I am grateful for the fact that I have so very much to be grateful for!!  I am also very grateful for feeling stronger emotionally and for feeling like my emotional needs are getting met. I don't feel so "desperate" like I used to feel. I don't have the incessant "cravings" like I used to have for so much, for food, clothing, sex, money etc....I don't feel worked up and needy like I used to feel for so many years. I feel calmer and more grounded now.

Gratitude for 5-28-2013 and Nourishment for my Soul

I am so grateful that the opportunity presented itself to me and I could learn to crochet, it nourishes my life, being creative and being able to put together such pretties!!

A couple of years back, I was in Walmart and I bought a kit to learn how to crochet. I love making things with my hands and I wanted to make myself my own scarf, mittens, hat in the colours I wanted to wear.  To say that it was a struggle at first is an understatement. I struggled, couldn't get it right.....this went on for a while until it finally dawned on me that I could look for help online. That search led me to Crochet Talk and that opened doors for me to make just the best girlfriends I have ever had. 

I wish I could fully describe and convey how creating makes me feel. When I gift a piece to someone, their reaction just sends me over the moon so many times.  I just ADORE it and I am grateful DAILY that I can craft.

Gratitude for 5-16-2013 and Moving at my Own Pace

Today I am grateful for the fact that I can move at the pace I need to to get stronger, physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally.

I believe that I am getting stronger every single day. I am surrounded by uplifting, nurturing people in person and online. I can not beat that. I just love it.

Gratitude for 5-14-2013 and Learning About Nutrition

I am grateful that I am finally learning about nutrition and cooking healthy.

I lost a ton of weight before, I was on a only organic diet. I really dropped the weight but there was so much I couldn't eat. This time I am eating healthier and I am not doing without the foods I enjoy, I simply eat those on occasions and in moderation. They are not what I eat the most, just once in a while. I am getting plenty to eat, I feel full for longer and I am dropping the excess weight much slower this time and that suits me just fine!!