Today I am profoundly grateful that I know that I do not have to hide my brains from anyone, any more ever again. I can let that light shine proudly and true.
When I was in the second grade, we were given aptitude tests. My results were such that my teacher advised my mother to place me in advanced classes. I remember Mother's expression and her terse words to my teacher, Sister Rosetta: " It will do her more harm than good".
As I continued my schooling, I remember finishing my math workbooks for the entire year by Thanksgiving. One of my teachers realized that I had and she praised me for my accomplishment. Well, my classmates hated me for it and ostracized me for that. I dumbed down in a futile attempt to fit in.
I realized only a handful of years ago that my mother was threatened by anyone who she perceived as better than her, so she was not about to encourage my schooling in areas where I could excel.
I know that I no longer need to or even want to continue dumbing myself down. I know I am intelligent and I choose to develop that to the very best of my capabilities.
Monday, November 25, 2013
Saturday, November 9, 2013
Gratitude for 11-09-2013 and Being Grateful for Mental Health Improvements
Today and every day, I am very grateful for the improvements I am seeing in my mental health. I see improvements daily and I am determined to continue to PLOUGH THROUGH the issues that need to be tossed out and replace them with healthy, productive and creative behaviour!
I am soooo much happier than I can even remember! And I am happy Every Single Day!! I have, with the help of excellent psychological tools and a fantastic psychotherapist, resolved some huge and far reaching poisonous issues that have plagued me for decades! I get to crank them out by their roots and banish them from me, never to return! I am surrounded by loving, funny and creative people who I know love me and want the best for me just as I do for them!
I am truly blessed and richer than I ever dreamed I would be!
I am soooo much happier than I can even remember! And I am happy Every Single Day!! I have, with the help of excellent psychological tools and a fantastic psychotherapist, resolved some huge and far reaching poisonous issues that have plagued me for decades! I get to crank them out by their roots and banish them from me, never to return! I am surrounded by loving, funny and creative people who I know love me and want the best for me just as I do for them!
I am truly blessed and richer than I ever dreamed I would be!
Wednesday, November 6, 2013
Gratitude for 11-06-2013 and Being Grateful for Everyone Who Helped Me Save My Life
Today I am profoundly grateful for all the people who have been in and are in my life who have helped me turn from that path of self-destruction I was once on.
Over the years, I have encountered so many quality people who have touched my life in so many wonderful ways! And at the time, I had no idea what was happening to me, I didn't know that it would all add up and I would be whole again.
I am also profoundly grateful for all of the tools I have learned and for the opportunities to learn more. My life has been forever changed!!
Over the years, I have encountered so many quality people who have touched my life in so many wonderful ways! And at the time, I had no idea what was happening to me, I didn't know that it would all add up and I would be whole again.
I am also profoundly grateful for all of the tools I have learned and for the opportunities to learn more. My life has been forever changed!!
Saturday, November 2, 2013
Gratitude for 11-02 2013 and Being Grateful for My Improving My Self-Esteem
Today I am profoundly grateful for being able to work through and process old hurts and pains and for being able to improve my self-esteem.
Life is so MUCH More FUN now!! So many things I used to worry about are gone and I feel stronger and better about myself. And getting to learn about setting boundaries and keeping them intact is getting easier for me. Before I was a very insecure frightened and followed along without speaking up for myself and I found myself going along with things I really didn't want to do. Now, after careful consideration, I can do what I want and I don't have to do what I don't.
Life is becoming a LOT of FUN for me now!!
Life is so MUCH More FUN now!! So many things I used to worry about are gone and I feel stronger and better about myself. And getting to learn about setting boundaries and keeping them intact is getting easier for me. Before I was a very insecure frightened and followed along without speaking up for myself and I found myself going along with things I really didn't want to do. Now, after careful consideration, I can do what I want and I don't have to do what I don't.
Life is becoming a LOT of FUN for me now!!
Thursday, October 31, 2013
Gratitude for 10-31-2013 and Not Obligated to be a People Pleaser Anymore
Today I am grateful to realize that I am not obligated to be a people pleaser,
that it is completely OK to say No when I don't want to do something someone asks me to do. Also I
am not obligated to give reasons for saying no. I can then choose how
important that relationship is to me and on whether I want to give that
person reasons on why I am saying no to them.
For ages, deep inside me, I was afraid that if I didn't follow along with the proverbial crowd, I would be rejected, I would be all alone. That belief put me directly in the path of people I really didn't want to spend time with and I ended up being manipulated which I now realize that resulted in depression issues for me.
I have come to learn and also to realize that I have the prerogative to select what I want to do and with whom. I have rights, just like anyone else does and I have to right to enjoy myself and do as I please. Being manipulated or bullied into doing something I don't want to do simply because I choose not to no longer has to be part of my life.
To me, realizing this and implementing it into my life go hand in hand, it is every bit as important to stand my ground when I say no and am met with responses pressuring to do what I have just stated that I do not want to. That is also a way for me to see who respects me and respects my needs and who is trying to manipulate me into doing what I do not want to do. Also, I am not obligated to give anyone a reason why not. If I chose to give a reason, that is because that relationship is important to me and I would want to preserve it. There also is letting someone down gently. Standing my ground is critically important to me, taking care of me is my biggest responsibility!! And I am loving learning how to do that!! It ROCKS!!
For ages, deep inside me, I was afraid that if I didn't follow along with the proverbial crowd, I would be rejected, I would be all alone. That belief put me directly in the path of people I really didn't want to spend time with and I ended up being manipulated which I now realize that resulted in depression issues for me.
I have come to learn and also to realize that I have the prerogative to select what I want to do and with whom. I have rights, just like anyone else does and I have to right to enjoy myself and do as I please. Being manipulated or bullied into doing something I don't want to do simply because I choose not to no longer has to be part of my life.
To me, realizing this and implementing it into my life go hand in hand, it is every bit as important to stand my ground when I say no and am met with responses pressuring to do what I have just stated that I do not want to. That is also a way for me to see who respects me and respects my needs and who is trying to manipulate me into doing what I do not want to do. Also, I am not obligated to give anyone a reason why not. If I chose to give a reason, that is because that relationship is important to me and I would want to preserve it. There also is letting someone down gently. Standing my ground is critically important to me, taking care of me is my biggest responsibility!! And I am loving learning how to do that!! It ROCKS!!
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Gratitude for 10-30-2013 and Being Grateful for the Ability to Say No Thank You.
"Today I am very grateful for understanding how important it is to follow the path I chose and to be able to politely but firmly say No Thank You to requests for events I do not want to participate in. This frees me up to do what is healthy and what works for me and to spend my time wisely doing what I enjoy and love. "
Do you know how and when to say : "No, thank you, I have to pass on that." One behaviour I am modifying is to stop and think about what I want to do or what I do not want to do and who I want to spend my time with. Not everyone clicks and not all events are fun or beneficial for everyone.
For me to follow and carefully think through what I want to do and with who has greatly improved my outlook and mental health. I am not feeling as exhausted as I have been and I am really getting a kick out of what I get to do with my time.
I am looking at what and where my boundaries are and what I can do to set and protect those boundaries. I have people in my life who respect them and I also have people who don't. I believe that everyone does, we all know people who need to be reminded of what is ok and what isn't. They can be co-workers, neighbours, family.....
In my life, I have allowed myself to be led about by my nose because deep down, I was afraid of being rejected if I didn't follow along. I am so glad I have finally realized and am understanding why I did that and how to behave in a healthier way for me.
Here are some great articles on saying no politely and firmly.
7 Ways to Say "No" and Keep Good Relations
Ten Keys to Handling Unreasonable and Difficult People
Best Wishes!!
Do you know how and when to say : "No, thank you, I have to pass on that." One behaviour I am modifying is to stop and think about what I want to do or what I do not want to do and who I want to spend my time with. Not everyone clicks and not all events are fun or beneficial for everyone.
For me to follow and carefully think through what I want to do and with who has greatly improved my outlook and mental health. I am not feeling as exhausted as I have been and I am really getting a kick out of what I get to do with my time.
I am looking at what and where my boundaries are and what I can do to set and protect those boundaries. I have people in my life who respect them and I also have people who don't. I believe that everyone does, we all know people who need to be reminded of what is ok and what isn't. They can be co-workers, neighbours, family.....
In my life, I have allowed myself to be led about by my nose because deep down, I was afraid of being rejected if I didn't follow along. I am so glad I have finally realized and am understanding why I did that and how to behave in a healthier way for me.
Here are some great articles on saying no politely and firmly.
7 Ways to Say "No" and Keep Good Relations
Ten Keys to Handling Unreasonable and Difficult People
Best Wishes!!
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
Gratitude for 10-29-2013 and Being Grateful for Mental Health Improvement Tools
Today I am grateful for the tools I have access to and have used over the years to improve my mental health dysfunctions and turn them into positive and healthy behaviour.
I find the process of addressing outdated and no longer useful behaviour, examining it and replacing it with positive, healthy and assertive behaviour fascinating!! I can decide on what area I want to work on and I either journal about it or I listen to positive behaviour modification Hypnosis scripts to see and address old and outdated behaviour, face it and accept it as what I once did but no longer need to. I can then decide what I want to do from now on, how can I change that behaviour into positive and healthier behaviour.
I find the process of addressing outdated and no longer useful behaviour, examining it and replacing it with positive, healthy and assertive behaviour fascinating!! I can decide on what area I want to work on and I either journal about it or I listen to positive behaviour modification Hypnosis scripts to see and address old and outdated behaviour, face it and accept it as what I once did but no longer need to. I can then decide what I want to do from now on, how can I change that behaviour into positive and healthier behaviour.
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